Notes:-Nice evening walk with Haz. Still churning over last weeks turmoil… sent Sis the part complete financial assessment exactly as I had intended to do last Thursday… with scanned trust docs and supporting evidence I had from mums bank accounts. Took anll Saturday night to complete. I asked her to complete the property sections, sign and send to the council. No way was I signing this. She sent it and ccd me in although she had missed off my attachments. I think they may have questions on property mum has owned. May not be an issue but they may ask for more info which I dont have so im not getting involved. Im trying to rationalise this, but its really damaged my relationship. I feel like I have been at odds with Sarah and Fran on almost everything. Sis not backing me up on the financial abuse was difficult, then not staying the day mum left hospital blaming me for coming up with Sarah and there being too many people around… no idea why she did that. Shes now trying to build a dialogue with no shred of acknowledgment of what happened last week. Imagine if my Sarah had told her to go fuck herself… I just want to get to the point where I can go up and see mum and help Mark and not have to deal with this crap. I did my best for mum and I think I enabled her to stay at home as long as possible, that was her wish and I played the major part in making that happen. I think im the one they blame for the situation as its easier to do that than accept that there was no other way when mum so expressly did not want to go into residential care. Hoping I start to feel better soon as im so depressed. I need to move on and focus on my family and job otherwise, if not I need to get some help.
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